Britney Spears’ dance videos on Instagram have long fascinated fans. Some have felt that the videos are a cry for help, while others interpreted it as the singer being free to do as she pleases, post-conservatorship. Now, Spears has attributed her dance videos to something that helps her alleviate an incurable pain.
Taking to Instagram Sunday (November 6), the “Hold Me Closer” singer posted a video wearing a red crop top and low-rise shorts dancing and spinning along to Foster The People’s 2011 hit “Pumped Up Kicks.” In a lengthy caption, Spears, 40, wrote, “yes … nerve damage on the right side of my body … there’s no cure except God I guess … nerve damage is caused sometimes when you don’t get enough oxygen to your brain … your brain literally shuts down … blah blah blah old story …”
The pop star continues to say that “in that place I didn’t breathe when I was there …,” alluding to the medical facility she placed in against her will. “nerve damage causes parts of your body to go numb. I wake up like 3 times a week in bed and my hands are completely numb … nerves are tiny and it feels like pins and needles from the right side of my body it shoots up to my neck and the part that hurts the worst is my temple on my head … it stings and it’s scary … the last 3 years since I got out of that place I’ve been in a mild unconscious state … I couldn’t face it. It was like it was too scary to be here …”
Spears called her Instagram, which she has 41.7 million followers, “not up to par to most.” But, she says, her account gave her “existence and got me here.” She finished her post by telling fans that “it’s funny though when I dance I don’t feel the pain … it’s like my mind literally goes to a place of my inner child. And although I don’t move like I use to … I truly believe my faith in it gave me strength … by the grace of God I finally found a medication where I actually feel oxygen going to my brain and through my neck … my eyes are more open now and I can hold my head up correctly … I’ve done a good job trying to pull it off. Either way I’m getting a lot better, I can breathe … I feel smarter because well, Jesus I can breathe now … either way, I’m breathing now and I can dance in time.”
Fans commented on the video posted by Spears with concern, despite her caption. One person wrote, “Reposting again? Something seems off lately,” while another said, “It’s the same video over and over… it’s getting sad.” Another fan commented, “We thought you moved from this house?” “You posted this an hour ago and deleted. And now again? Weird. Your keepers aren’t doing their best,” wrote another person.
Take a look below at some of Britney Spears’ Instagram dance videos: